came across this on a womens only site

This guilt is killing me

I love my DH very much, we met 6 years ago and we’ve been married for the last 2 years, the problem is that for those six years I’ve known him, I have always cheated on him, vuteni stool I tell you my story

Fresh from collage, I was lucky to land a very good job working as a personal assistant for a CEO in a multinational company here in Nairobi. Salo and benefits no complains, a few weeks after I joined, my boss (a very good looking 56 year old married man and father of 3 grown up kids), started acting different towards me, he started asking me out and showering me with expensive gifts. At first It was really hard for me; I was torn between saying yes and keeping my job or saying no to him and losing my job, I chose the former, after all I was completely single and he was a good looking guy, it was obvious he was addicted to the gym because he had a body a 21 year old man would die for.

He was so gentle and kind to me(he still is to this day), he made me feel like I was the only woman on the planet, he helped me furnish my apartment, bought me a car and gave me a huge weekly allowance just to pamper myself , in return I took care of all his needs, sexual or otherwise. I was there for him 24/7.

Met my DH through a mutual friend approximately two years after I begun working, it was sparks and fireworks at first sight, I knew instantly we were meant for each other, soon we stared dating, at the same time I was still taking care of my boss’s needs, before long I got used to having two wonderful men in my life, I loved my boyfi (now my DH) and I felt indebted to my boss, also felt some affection for him. When it came time for us to get married, I had to inform my boss, I expected the worst to happen, i would loss my job and I was ready for that, but to my surprise my boss was totally happy for me, he even offered to pay for our honeymoon, a one week stay in a 5star hotel at the Seychelles.

Naturally the sexual relations with my boss were over as I was now a married woman, or so I thought, but I was wrong, very wrong, the day I returned to work after my honeymoon we were at it again that evening, this time in his office, I had missed his gentle touch and when he approached me I could not resist, but the guilt that followed when I got home to the arms of my husband was enormous, I have been living with this guilt for a long time, I cannot break the ties with my boss, I’ve tried but I just can’t do it, on the other hand the guilt is killing me, I have even gone to the lengths of trying to catch my DH cheating, managed to crack all his passwords, Phone, Tablet and laptop but I have come out empty handed, my hubby is as white as snow , I thought It would make me feel less guilty if I found out he was also cheating, but woe an to me

Don’t know what to do, any of you ladies got an idea that would help me out?

Just found out on Monday that am paged , I know it’s by my dh, but I have some doubts, that’s what has prompted me share this with you’all , the guilt is now worse than before, I do not have any idea what to do, the pain in my heart is unbearable

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What a disgrace!

this is sick, yani women do things like this, very sad

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:slight_smile:

Slut if its true …

Purr_27 how are you?

Welcome to the world of ‘sexual liberation’, ‘independence’ and ‘feminism’. And perhaps the husband normally narrates to his buddies how he’s ‘lucky’ to have a ‘loving’ wife.

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Am fine thanks, wassup :slight_smile:

Its shiit like this that made me vow never to get married, wacha nikaye na watoi wangu pekee

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Never trust anything that has a hole, just fill the hole with your member and walk away.

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[SIZE=6] Numbers 5:11-31New International Version (NIV)[/SIZE]

[SIZE=4]Deuteronomy 22:22 [/SIZE]
“If a man is found lying with the wife of another man, both of them shall die, the man who lay with the woman, and the woman. So you shall purge the evil from Israel.

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Kawambui tigaga wana o nawe ,

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heheheheheh!!!, niger being played like a 6 string instrument, pity the bustard

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How possible is it to claim she loves her man yet she’s unfaithful to him? Were the marriage vows just a poem? She doesn’t respect herself if the job’s perks make her cheat.

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Tell us this, men cheat all the time and yet love their wifes :rolleyes::rolleyes:!!

Unasema malaya, huyu ataitwa nini?

Like I said in one of my radical posts, men cheat because there are loose women around to DF.

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KILL THE BOSS

Really …coz off course themselves are not “loose” …they r just victims:rolleyes::rolleyes::rolleyes:

Any hoo men cheat …women cheat!!! since most can get away with it , that’s life

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Ngai augire malaya,arogi na ngui itikaingira matuini.
Outside are the dogs and the sorcerers and the immoral persons and the murderers and the idolaters, and everyone who loves and practices lying. 16"I, Jesus, have sent My ange (Revelation 22:15).