#ThisIsMyStory I feel lost,in a desert.
I'm church goer ,a worship leader at a prominent church and an advocate. I write this I can't help but cry,I'm devastated.
When I joined university I was innocent and spiritual, held positions in the CU and even talked in tongues. I never missed church, people respected me(they still do) I'm the model,girls look up to me. My parents are so proud of me.
But I'm not proud of me,in university I met a guy he was(is) total perfection from outside,a Christian so he says. When we saw each something clicked like love on first sight,we started seeing each in secret but I told him I'm not ready for sex and he was okay with it. So one day he came my place stayed until 12 A.M I told him he had to go to him but then he couldn't go because it was too and he might get murdered out there( I have never done a sleepover with anyone or had sex).
So we slept but he touched me but I told I wasn't ready for sex but he told me not to worry we won't have sex till marriage but we could do other things so he fingered me it was painful he ate me, we did it often and now I'm addicted.
One day I will kill myself and will wonder why because I was perfect and had many friends. I'm a 'virgin', what my strict parents finds out that I'm not what if my boyfriend will tell on me.
Please help me.
PS: I received this submission for #ThisIsMyStory campaign from a lady who is apparently suicidal because she is saved yet addicted to sex. I can't publish this on my page for certain reasons so I posted it here where I can select a few responses and email back to her. Sasa how would you help her?
*Attached is a screenshot of her email submission.
I'm church goer ,a worship leader at a prominent church and an advocate. I write this I can't help but cry,I'm devastated.
When I joined university I was innocent and spiritual, held positions in the CU and even talked in tongues. I never missed church, people respected me(they still do) I'm the model,girls look up to me. My parents are so proud of me.
But I'm not proud of me,in university I met a guy he was(is) total perfection from outside,a Christian so he says. When we saw each something clicked like love on first sight,we started seeing each in secret but I told him I'm not ready for sex and he was okay with it. So one day he came my place stayed until 12 A.M I told him he had to go to him but then he couldn't go because it was too and he might get murdered out there( I have never done a sleepover with anyone or had sex).
So we slept but he touched me but I told I wasn't ready for sex but he told me not to worry we won't have sex till marriage but we could do other things so he fingered me it was painful he ate me, we did it often and now I'm addicted.
One day I will kill myself and will wonder why because I was perfect and had many friends. I'm a 'virgin', what my strict parents finds out that I'm not what if my boyfriend will tell on me.
Please help me.
PS: I received this submission for #ThisIsMyStory campaign from a lady who is apparently suicidal because she is saved yet addicted to sex. I can't publish this on my page for certain reasons so I posted it here where I can select a few responses and email back to her. Sasa how would you help her?
*Attached is a screenshot of her email submission.
