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...i'm drunk.
I have been struggling with the concept of God and to be honest I'm a little frustrated. I've been telling myself I would make enough money so that i can take some time away and dig out all i can find about God. I grew up in the church, u know the forced Sunday school attendance and even after i cleared high school it was never my choice to go to church, it was mandatory and my evil step mum was always there to ask me weird questions in front of my late dad ati pastor aliongea nini leo (incert a terrible embu accent).

I'm going to make this short and ask the staunch Christians, only those that have been through hell and back to explain to me where i should start. This is a personal journey that i intend to take alone until i find the answers my soul is searching for.

I say this because as kid i suffered countless injustices (story for another day if i ever indulge in this cheap whiskey) because of my parents' devotion to the church (Redeemed gospel church to be precise) and because of that i missed moments in my life i will never get back.

Before i conclude i should mention that over the past few years i acquainted myself with eastern ways of life devoid of religion, meditation has been very helpful, i remember @kaswii from klist - bless her beautiful soul - inboxed me some tips on that. I nailed literally every job interview and sometimes appointements with realtors whenever i was searching for an apartment. Those who've lived majuu know how your skin color can work against you finding a house especially when 10 pple show up for the viewing and you're the only dark skinned fellow.

So back to my request. If you've ever reached a point where you doubted the existence of God and found a reason to believe again a brother needs you.
 
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Purr_27

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God is real,full of love you can feel him in you ...n he will fulfill u with so much unconditional love n happiness if you let him..went through alot when young but Jesus has always been there for me....
 

DO_IT

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so usaidiwe aje? your daddy or mummy issues do not qualify for our attention, if you want to offer a sob story ambia the pink handles you form a group we will supply ice cream and chocolate and some bras just in case you grow a pair of boobs in the process. Ichieni


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Shyguy

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...i'm drunk.
I have been struggling with the concept of God and to be honest I'm a little frustrated. I've been telling myself I would make enough money so that i can take some time away and dig out all i can find about God. I grew up in the church, u know the forced Sunday school attendance and even after i cleared high school it was never my choice to go to church, it was mandatory and my evil step mum was always there to ask me weird questions in front of my late dad ati pastor aliongea nini leo (incert a terrible embu accent).

I'm going to make this short and ask the staunch Christians, only those that have been through hell and back to explain to me where i should start. This is a personal journey that i intend to take alone until i find the answers my soul is searching for.

I say this because as kid i suffered countless injustices (story for another day if i ever indulge in this cheap whiskey) because of my parents' devotion to the church (Redeemed gospel church to be precise) and because of that i missed moments in my life i will never get back.

Before i conclude i should mention that over the past few years i acquainted myself with eastern ways of life devoid of religion, meditation has been very helpful, i remember @kaswii from klist - bless her beautiful soul - inboxed me some tips on that. I nailed literally every job interview and sometimes appointements with realtors whenever i was searching for an apartment. Those who've lived majuu know how your skin color can work against you finding a house especially when 10 pple show up for the viewing and you're the only dark skinned fellow.

So back to my request. If you've ever reached a point where you doubted the existence of God and found a reason to believe again a brother needs you.
I too went the same way you have.Please find a book "Conversations With God" by Neale Daniel Walsch.I too found religion devoid of truth.One may call what am comfortable now with as philosophy.One thing is for sure,I'm a lot happier,have gotten rid of serious addictions including a 2 pack a day smoking habit (cold turkey I might add) and a terrible sex and booze addiction.Welcome I say,and Godspeed to your search for thruth.Kindly share the material from @kaswii you described above.Namaste.
 
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so usaidiwe aje? your daddy or mummy issues do not qualify for our attention, if you want to offer a sob story ambia the pink handles you form a group we will supply ice cream and chocolate and some bras just in case you grow a pair of boobs in the process. Ichieni


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I too went the same way you have.Please find a book "Conversations With God" by Neale Daniel Walsch.I too found religion devoid of truth.One may call what am comfortable now with as philosophy.One thing is for sure,I'm a lot happier,have gotten rid of serious addictions including a 2 pack a day smoking habit (cold turkey I might add) and a terrible sex and booze addiction.Welcome I say,and Godspeed to your search for thruth.Kindly share the material from @kaswii you described above.Namaste.
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