I remember a time when while in school , in the middle of the night i suddenly woke up to find a friend of mine fondling me . The shock that engulfed me rendered me motionless, i couldn’t believe what i was witnessing before my eyes , the guy continued & did whatever he wanted mpaka i gathered the little strength i had and barked him too stop .
We were quite close and he slept in the bed next to mine . anyways , A significant exam was near and to say my life was thrown off balance is an understatement . To make matters worse , this dude was from a rich family , the uncle was our head teacher and i had gone to his house before where we drunk and slept in the same huuge bedroom with him while watching t.v . I assume he did terrible things to me while in my drunken state in the comfort of his mansion which his rich dead parents had left him . The stress i got really put me down
after mastering all the courage i had , I caused a scene in the dorm beat him up and kicked him out of our dorm . guys in our dorm knew what happened coz they made fun of me the day after . I was soo traumatised and confused from that day onwards . Siku moja i just found myslef heading to our very religious head teacher in his office thinking he would do something about it . I knockd on his office door and got in .I found him arrangin documents . In a weak voice i explained to him what happened . The only response i got was something like this "Kijana , achana na hio maneno , enda usome and achana na hio maneno . do you hear me ! " …that garbage came from a very religious , respected leader and it tore me apart . My respect for him just melted . f*ckin hypocrite ! i whispered under my breath…
some things just affect you in strange ways . I went through depression & confusion . This felt like rape . I felt like my dignity & self importance had left me , i felt empty , " so this is how rape feels " i i whispered . yes i got soo lost in my mind & even got to a point where i thought i was gay . I didn’t tell anybody but knowing that talking about sh** heals people …i narrated that story to my brothers but told them it happened to some other guy . After all the laughter & a little concern about the guy in my story …i was glad i talked about it ,i felt relieved kidogo.
yes —> This has affected me to this day …
i didn’t pass highly but i tried
and i am straight …
the guy works in a clearing and forwarding company and he had apparently done the same thing to a class mate of mine . his christian name starts with No****
Hivi ndivyo vile roho hufunguliwa.
Sio kama ule jamaa alipatana na majamaa wako na mapanga kwa taxi ati walikuwa farmers, but in reality alichunishwa sukumaste