Mask off

#1
What we all crave is being ourselves around the people we care about and love. That's never the reality to most of us because we are usually afraid of not being understood, or being labeled uncool. Am not myself. I hide behind words and fake names in order to express who I truly am to total freaking strangers and weirdly enough I feel more comfortable showing off my true self to mere strangers than to my friends . By now I guess we have all figured out the cause of this, pressure of peers. How long will it take me to overcome that pressure and most importantly what will it have costed me in that time, will I be able to live with myself knowing that I would have done better for myself, built better, loved better, have failed businessess. Truth is I can never know.
What's worse is that am an extrovert. The guy who always seems to know it all, the fun guy, the crazy one, among other labels. But deep down I know I am not showing my true self and what's really terrible is that I have done it for a long time till I have grown accustomed to it and almost called it my true self. Am envious of the people who get to be criticized for expressing themselves. In actual sense they really have accepted who they are and no one can tell them any different. Such is what I crave, mask off
 

Kigui

Village Elder
#2
What we all crave is being ourselves around the people we care about and love. That's never the reality to most of us because we are usually afraid of not being understood, or being labeled uncool. Am not myself. I hide behind words and fake names in order to express who I truly am to total freaking strangers and weirdly enough I feel more comfortable showing off my true self to mere strangers than to my friends . By now I guess we have all figured out the cause of this, pressure of peers. How long will it take me to overcome that pressure and most importantly what will it have costed me in that time, will I be able to live with myself knowing that I would have done better for myself, built better, loved better, have failed businessess. Truth is I can never know.
What's worse is that am an extrovert. The guy who always seems to know it all, the fun guy, the crazy one, among other labels. But deep down I know I am not showing my true self and what's really terrible is that I have done it for a long time till I have grown accustomed to it and almost called it my true self. Am envious of the people who get to be criticized for expressing themselves. In actual sense they really have accepted who they are and no one can tell them any different. Such is what I crave, mask off
If I were you I would not measure myself against other people. I would measure myself against my own potential. Dont be a pretender with your inner circle. Those are the guys who will help you network more and get more opportunities to develop yourself. If I were you, I would be more honest with friends that I meet daily rather than strangers in the Internet.

Some of us are older and have failed more than once. You just need to wake up every time you fail. My motto is 'I gave it my best'.
 

WANJIKU

Village Elder
#5
What we all crave is being ourselves around the people we care about and love. That's never the reality to most of us because we are usually afraid of not being understood, or being labeled uncool. Am not myself. I hide behind words and fake names in order to express who I truly am to total freaking strangers and weirdly enough I feel more comfortable showing off my true self to mere strangers than to my friends . By now I guess we have all figured out the cause of this, pressure of peers. How long will it take me to overcome that pressure and most importantly what will it have costed me in that time, will I be able to live with myself knowing that I would have done better for myself, built better, loved better, have failed businessess. Truth is I can never know.
What's worse is that am an extrovert. The guy who always seems to know it all, the fun guy, the crazy one, among other labels. But deep down I know I am not showing my true self and what's really terrible is that I have done it for a long time till I have grown accustomed to it and almost called it my true self. Am envious of the people who get to be criticized for expressing themselves. In actual sense they really have accepted who they are and no one can tell them any different. Such is what I crave, mask off
up I grew up in a family where I was the only step child.it was lonely growing up and they always ganged up against me ,sadly even my mother .I guess this contributed a lot to my being an introvert. for may years I hid from the world more so when I got married and it did not work....at some point I went through training that required I go through guidance and counseling plus some units in psychology. this helped me discover me and to be comfortable with me.I still hide but when with people I am me.you need to seek help because its important to live out who you are not what you want the world to think you are.its lonely for your soul when you have to hide who you real are
 

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