As Kenyan rapper Wangechi and her
friend Tewa recuperate in hospital,
following the drastic accident which
left their car a mangled wreck, many
Kenyans are wishing them safe
recovery under the tags
#PrayForWangechi and #PrayForTewa.
It was however sad that the other
lady Tiona who had been riding with
them passed on while still in ICU at
the hospital. But even as friends
wish her soul eternal peace, it
seems that Tiona had been battle
suicidal thoughts for quite a while.
A close look at her personal blog
revealed that she had tried
committing suicide a while back and
the fact that she had lost both
parents did not make it any easier.
To further affirm her struggles, she
mentioned that she was only twenty
but life had given her much more
than many 32 year olds had seen.
Life had thrown struggles, pain and
disappointment her way and all she
wanted was to go and be with her
mother…
Well here is her Faite post extract
from her blog.
“Lately, I’ve been thinking of the
time I was suicidal… There really
isn’t anything good about that time.
I don’t recall a happy moment or a
time I smiled. I was just… Dead, I
guess. I was literally numb to
everything; I had no one to talk to.
Im an only child with two parents
that are gone. The only thing I have
left are my thoughts… Which aren’t
good. I keep of thinking on that
day… Maybe I should have
continued to cut myself… Maybe I
should have killed myself when I had
the chance; I should have just grown
some balls and cut my wrist in
peace. I really don’t feel like there’s
anything in this life for me. It’s like
one bad thing happening after the
other to me… I’m only 20 and I’ve
seen life more than any 32 year old
has…and I hate that. Why does it
have to be struggle after struggle for
me? Pain after pain, disappointment
after effort… It’s like God is giving
me a sign to end my suffering…to
just go and be with my mother…
Isn’t death supposed to be peaceful?
Isn’t heaven place to be one with
yourself? I’m not sure but I’m
curious enough to find out.”
Well, death may not have been the
ultimate answer but perhaps Tiona
is in a better place and all we can
do is pray that her soul rests in
peace.
She found death.